Wow! I’m at one of those times in life where absolutely nothing makes since! I’ve always been bad at changes but this tops it all. Me and my girlfriend of 2 and 1/2 years just broke up in order to experience other people. We realize that all this will do is either prove that we were in fact meant for each other or that we are not. It is killing me though! She was my first girlfriend so I really did want to know if the only reason I loved her so much was because she was all I knew. I miss her so much it hurts so bad! I never knew how much she meant to me. Also I just moved out for college… Another huge change. I guess we just have to go through these. Sorry this is terribly written but it was more for me anyway.

I hate how it seems like everybody thinks that I do and say things just for attention when Im being dead serious!

Your so blind, so selfish, and you don’t realize that you make it harder for me to stand you every single day I have to endure your complaints.

You’re not my problem. I can’t even help you if I wanted to, I’ve tried.

It’s impossible to get through to you – if I wasn’t so afraid you’d do something suicidally stupid, I would have given up ages ago.

What kills me the most is knowing i never got to go to the beach with you, i never got to hold your hand, i never got to take care of you, i never got to tell you how much i love you. thanks to the son of a bitch that shot you i will never again get to see that smile, hear those jokes, hear your voice. you promised me, one day just you and i. I will never know how that would have been. Thank you for being one of the best things that has happened to me. I will NEVER forget about you. I love you.

And as for you selfish asshole that was showing off to your dumb ass friends how “Hard” you can be, I hope you ROT. Karma is a bitch mother fucker, I don’t even know you but I wish you nothing but pain. There is NOTHING “Hard” about killing another human being. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU. Your no fucking Thug. Your nothing but a mother fucking wimp. you deserve Nothing but the worst.

The bruses fade but the pain still lingers…the sun may light the passing days but all is dead inside. Killed by this thing called life. You try and try to be as happy as you can but something is always there bringing you down. Hurting you till you can no longer breath. Sore inside and out You can barely move. And you want to scream for it all to go away but it doesn’t and you scream for someone to come along and just say a few nice words to bring you back to life to brighten your day but no one hears you. So you leave searching for some hope, answers… some shred of happiness. But your at a dead end and you don’t know which way to go, you know if you turn back now the same abuse and hurtfullness and emptiness will be all that’s there…………just keep seaching you will find you way….to love happiness…………a brighter day? :0(