Can’t find a better man…
I can’t ever need you or you’ll leave. If I’m stressed out I can’t share the weight of it with you because you’ll leave. If I’m feeling lonely and I just want some company, I can’t just drop by because you always have other plans in which I’m not included that are more fun than spending time with me. You’re only there in the good times. You have a separate life with friends and other people that you never tell me about, like you have a secret life that you don’t want me to interfere in…this is not normal after being together for almost 2 years. You don’t include me in your life or share it with me. I don’t have or want to be included in everything. I don’t have or want to be with you 24/7 because it’s suffocating. But you have me so compartmentalized…it’s like some control thing. You don’t want me to touch or affect 65% of your life. You don’t include me in it.
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Hang in there. I know it’s rough. The best thing possible is to talk it over, don’t let them go on thinking that everything in the relationship is ok. If you feel somethings not right, you have to voice it, because one way or another it’s going to be surfaced.
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Hey, there booboono. Thanks for responding. Talking to him won’t change him. He won’t change. I just realized I’ve spent most of my time crying in this relationship. I finally realized he’s with me for companionship until he finds someone he really likes, because he doesn’t like spending time with me unless it’s cuddling on the couch or in his bed. We don’t spend any one on one time doing anything fun outside of that, we only spend time in a big group setting. But he does spend one on one time with his other friends going shooting and to wine festivals…to which I’m not invited. He’s a prick. I know I’m pretty close to done because I don’t feel hope any more and I mostly only think of the hurt and the bad times when I think of him lately. And I’ve been avoiding him lately because I’m trying to protect myself from feeling more hurt and let down. He doesn’t realize that all his negative reinforcement has trained me to stay away from him.
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