All I want is a stand up guy
You know all I want is just one awesome guy that we connect and we continue to grow, but all I seem to attract are lying assholes. This last dude was a real winner. I mean he lies so much that I think he may actually believe them. I mean in the beginning we were so into each other so I thought. But then I see him talking to this preggers chick not to mention countless others. And I am thinking I can’t compete with that. But I never confronted him about it. But as time went on he began to ignore me and when I called him out about it he would deny he was ignoring me. Finally I cussed him about a situation that I will not mention. I guess I am a person that you can’t get me used to you being around and then fucking disappear and then give me a half ass reason as to why you did. Then continue ignore me and think I won’t figure out what I going on. Believe I did figure out without him ever telling me. I mean I should have known what I was getting into. But my ignorance of hope and faith caused me heartbreak. I mean I just wanted him to finally admit that I was no longer the priority but an option. But he refused to. But I can’t keep getting fed bullshit and swallowing it down. It hurts too much. I mean the crazy thing was we weren’t together but he led me to believe that I was the one he was waiting for and like a dumb idiot I believed him. Well not anymore I don’t give a fuck what he does, I am just tired of him lying to me. So I finally cut him off. Because life is too short to be miserable for someone else. But this is isn’t the first time this has happened to me. So why can’t I just finally meet a guy who is not full of major bullshit? Why do I keep attracting these temporary cassanovas? I am not getting any younger you know. I don’t want to be old one day and having a birthday with my 20 cats. I want to be a girlfriend, then a wife, and a mother. I want to fall in love and really be loved. I am just scared that If I allow this happen to me again, I am going become one of those bitter women who think that men are a waste of time. I know in my heart that is not true. But I keep attracting the ones who waste my time with empty promises and beautiful lies. Ugh!!!!
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if you always do what you have always done, you will always get what you always got.
where are you meeting these guys? are they always the same type of guy? dress the same, do their hair the same, look the same?
you probably pick the wrong guy because the guy you should be with isn’t the one you would pick to begin with.
there is probably a great guy that you already know who would treat you with all the love and respect you probably* deserve. (*no offense, but i don’t know you, you could be one of the few crazy women out there.)
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thanks for the response. I mean they all seem different at first but then yikes the wolf comes out the sheep clothing. And you’re right I get too caught up on the wrong guy that I may have missed the right guy for me. I mean I have never been the type to put out someone’s biz on the street or anything or make a scene but it seems the guys i attract want those type of women.
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