Screw this damn place.
I cannot wait to move out of this hole.
You two are always saying that I’m “just a teenager” and don’t appreciate what you do for me, and that I don’t have any responsibilities… well fuck you both. I’m always doing things, I’m the only sibling (our of four) who does anything around this place… I was your dishes, your clothes, take away your rubbish, feed the animals, look after the dishwasher, vaccum; make this house look at least a little decent for when people come over. Honestly, I do more than you around here, and manage my final years of schooling on top of that. You don’t even have a proper job. And fuck! All you do is complain or ask me to do something. Or argue. Really, we have NEVER had a proper conversation before.
Hah. When I was younger you used to tell all your friends that I was argumentative and difficult to handle, because we were always fighting. Now that I’m older, I don’t start arguments, or argue back to you, because I know better. However, you are always starting things, always trying to wind me up. Now we all see that you are hot-tempered one. But still, you won’t admit it. You still tell people (that I don’t know) that I’m this little shit. Well, fuck you.
And you all laugh when I say I’m leaving in a year.
But I will. Just you see. As soon as school finishes, I’m going to the university that I WANT to go to, to complete the course that I WANT to do (you two have other plans). Oh, and since you can’t afford it, and won’t pay for the things I want to do, I will just gather up some debts and pay them later in life; I can manage on my own. I’ll rent an apartment and buy my own food, which I’ll be able to afford with a part time job. Sure, it won’t be easy, but it’ll be a HELL of a lot better than living here.
My friends support me more than you two do.
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hell, complete strangers support you.
i say stop doing all these things around the house and see how quick they go ‘Oh shit.’
i say that yes, life will be tough trying to put yourself through school working a job, but it will be worth it.
remember, everything that you do now for your family is preparing you to take care of yourself out in the real world. hopefully years from now, you can look back and be grateful that you learned how to cook, clean, do laundry for yourself rather than having to depend on someone else.
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Just remember, when you move out, things become your responsibility. A good way to open up a path for your future when you move out is to make sure you manage your finances responsibility. Live within your means, and don’t spend on luxury items until you can truly afford them.. Good luck on your path to self sustainability and happiness.
Use the anger and frustration to help fuel yourself achieve. However, once you move out, let the past be water under the bridge. You’ll find that it may be easier to maintain a peaceful relationship with some time apart and independance. Just assume that they are really trying to help you, but in their own way.
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The other commenters have great advice. I hope that you will be able to have a good relationship with your parents after you leave. I hope that they will be proud of you (they absolutely should be!) and that you will feel comfortable asking them for help if/when you need it (and that they give it to you willingly). Regardless of how things turn out, it is great that you are so responsible (with the chores) and ambitious. You’ll be a great role model for your siblings as well.
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Uh, not all families DESERVE the “water under the bridge” forgiveness thing. Sometimes, it’s truly best (I speak from experience, I’m in my 40s now) to walk away and rarely, if ever, go back. I left home at 19, and have been back to my home area exactly four times; I’ll be 44 in the fall.
Do what is best for you, and don’t let anyone lay a “but they’re your FAMILY” guilt trip on you. If they treat you like crap now, they’ll treat you like crap later. Get on with your life, and I applaud you for valuing yourself enough to not take the abuse and belittlement a second longer than necessary. *big high-five*
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