oh.
I’ve been a member of a forum/website for a pretty long time now. We often have Skype chats with each other, and socialize together in various (mostly web-based, but some of the members have met up) ways.
I’ve always been one of the youngest on the site, but no one was very condescending about it; in fact, people seemed very surprised when I told them I was my age (twelve at the time – I’m thirteen now). But I digress.
We were all very close at one point (as close as a bunch of teenage girls over the internet can be) but recently it’s become a little shaky. I’ve found myself being put down by others and have found solace in only a couple of the other members.
However, they all do the same thing: ignore me. I know I’m kind of an asshat sometimes, but I never mean it, really — I actually dislike being mean to my friends; I’m such a hypocrite.
I love these people. A lot. But lately, I’m not sure they love me back. If I post anything on the message boards or Skype chats, it’s often ignored by the slightly-more-popular members. I’m never invited to the Skype chats anymore, and when I am people tend to shunt me off to one side. It really pisses me off, but I can’t do anything about it. If they don’t want to talk to me, I don’t want to make them. Am I annoying them or something? What have I been doing wrong? I honestly just want my opinion accounted for, not pushed away as if it didn’t matter.
I know there are some members that sincerely still enjoy my company, but those numbers are few.
If they’d actually sit down and have a good, long, conversation with me, I am, without a doubt, sure that their opinion would change about me – whether it be for the better or the worse.
This vent is so long, because I have that nasty habit of bottling things up inside me until I’m fit to burst and now I just want all this mess to stop and I just want people to talk to me. Am I such a bad person for just wanting at least a little attention?
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Take no notice of them ur just intelligent for ur age and some people aren’t use to that
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Maybe it’s time to move to a different part of the internet, and make new friends for a while. In a few months you can go back to your old site- and they will probably have forgotten whatever it is that’s been annoying them, and will remember you from all the years of good times that came before. Sometimes when friendships get stale, the best thing to do is give them a little bit of air. Invite one or two of the people who still like you to check out another site with you so that you don’t feel like you’re striking out all alone.
Good luck!
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