I did wrong.
For two years, I’ve dropped contact with you. Two years girl, two fucking years. Do you know how it feels to miss you as bad as I have? I am not in love with brittany. I’m still in love with you, and I can’t help it. I know you’re going to Korea to serve the army in just a few days, but I really wish you would answer my phone calls and hear me out. I love you with all of my heart. If you could only understand my love for you, you would realize that we are on the same level. I know you love me like I love you, and I wish we could stop pretending that we wouldn’t make a perfect husband and wife. Yes, I said it. I want to marry you, and I have for years. If you could only understand the heartache I’ve gone through. It won’t go away. No matter where I go, or who I’m with my heart is always with you. I can’t help it. I know we did some stuff on Christmas Eve when we were drunk, but I would’ve done it sober. I love you, and I’m not afraid anymore. I just wish I hadn’t fucked things up, because you are the perfect woman. I had you, and I messed it up for me. For the rest of my life, I will be enslaved to these feelings for you, which will not go away. I wish you would hear me out, because I miss you so terribly right now, and always. I want to make you my wife, and if I have to wait five years, then that’s fine with me. I want you. I don’t want anyone else. I only got back with someone because you wanted me to. Because you love me, like I love you and you wanted to see me happy as I do you. I am not happy in my current relationshit, and I can tell you right now that it won’t work. It won’t work because I’m still in love with you, forever and always. As I cry when I write this, my heart is forever enslaved. My feelings for you are forever, and I will never forget the wonderful person you are. I’m so sorry I fucked things up. I really am, and I mean it from the bottom of my heart. I just wish that you wanted me like I want you. I know I did this to myself, and I know this is what I deserve. I’m in so much pain, that i can’t describe it with words.
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So…it’s been nearly a year…what happened?
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perhaps you should write her a letter telling her the whole truth instead of venting anonymously… and if she doesn’t answer it, perhaps you should let her move on with her life and let yourself move on with yours
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