Confused
I’m sure I’ll get shit for this post. I’m still trying to get over my ex gf and so far I guess it’s going alright but I can’t tell if it’s because it really is alright or if I’ve just pushed the feelings away. I am currently seeing a girl and a boy just to test out the waters. It’s been a long time since I’ve been with anyone other than my ex gf. I don’t know if the best way to heal is to see these people or if maybe I should just spend more time getting to know myself. I know that if I’m laying in bed with somebody and I still feel lonely and empty, that’s probably not a good sign. I feel like I’m being unfair to both of them but I also think I think too much and in the end, I doubt they actually care enough for me to actually be able to hurt them.
But on a good note, I got a new job that pays pretty well and I sold my car off which fucking sucks but it’s paying my bills. It kind of sucks that once everything else starts to look up, I lose the one thing that I ever really had faith in. I know it sounds dumb and I’m probably just being lame.
It kills me that I have so much to say to her still and I’ve never once gotten the chance to. I miss her. That’s all. I don’t think that’s unreasonable of me…is it?
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I dont think what you said was dumb or lame. It sounds like youre just realizing that you still care about someone, and thats not a crime. Its normal. You should try and talk with her again. Dont push your feelings away when it could be something real. Hang in there!
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It would also help you to find out which side of the fence your on. You said your dating a man and a woman. That is something that may be at the core of your problems even if you don’t realize it. I’m not knocking your sexuality I’m just saying you should assess how you really feel and move on from there. Nothing you said is anything you should feel uncomfortable about. you need to get your mind right and figure out what YOU want and what will most suite YOUR needs. Just my opinion, you can take it or leave it. I hope I didn’t come off to cynical because that wasn’t my intention.
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I don’t feel that I need to be on one side of the fence or the other. I have been with both women and men equally it all just depends on who the person is, not their gender. But I completely understand what you’re saying and it does make sense. Either way, I know that I have a lot to sort out within myself. Thank you for an honest opinion.
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