I’m so tired of putting up with the crap that I do, and I don’t know how long I’m actually going to be able to keep this relationship up, because my will power is dwindling with every single day that passes by. To let you better understand why I feel this way, here is a little background information.
My boyfriend, who is actually the first boyfriend I’ve ever had, and I have been in our relationship for a year and a half now. We both go to college now,the same college actually, and he is one year older than me, since he was held back a grade we’re still in the same grade, but anyways….So this started around the beginning of college, maybe a week or two after? My best friend got a job boxing up clothes to be shipped out to stores and hooked my boyfriend up with the job, which was cool….except for the horrible hours. He now works from eight at night to one ‘o clock in the morning, which I hate for certain reasons.
Now at the college there is this gaming club that has kind’ve formed, and it’s another route of my problems. Before he even got this job, he would keep ignoring me to play these video games so I would leave early because I was getting tired of it, then he would stay at campus until late and head home, meaning I didn’t get to see him. There would be times he would come over and see me sometimes, but it was pretty rare. With the addition of this job though? The time I get with him has been slim to none.
What with the fact that I leave early because I get ignored by him for everyone else in the room and I do not even get acknowledged for being there sometimes, I always leave early now, so he stays there every day, monday through thursday, and I don’t see him at all on these days because he leaves straight from campus to go home to get ready for work. Then when Friday comes along, his day off, he comes to my house for maybe two hours after playing video games on campus, then heads off to play more games with his friends. Is it too much to ask for me to get a little time with him that I can actually feel good about?
It gets better though.On the weekends, when I think “Finally I’ll get to see him!”, I’m lucky if I even get a text from him and sometimes he’ll even say “Oh, I’ll totally come over today”, then I’ll be waiting all day for him, and then at ten at night I’ll get a text from him saying “Sorry, I couldn’t get over there” or once he ever had the guts to tell me that “Well I didn’t feel like coming over so I thought not texting you would’ve let you know that.” and I only got that text because I talked to him first. So I wouldn’t have even gotten it had I not talked to him to ask why he hadn’t come.
Really? Really now? I mean a decent person lets their significant other know when they aren’t able to come over if they said they would, why can’t I even get that? Better yet, am I not good enough to hang out with on the weekends? It seems like I’m alone monday through thursday, I’m the pit stop he makes on friday before more games, then saturday and sunday I’m the one he comes to “if he feels like it/has time.” Am I just not interesting or worth his time?
Now I’m going to rant a little bit about the ‘ignoring me during school’ factor. As I stated before there is a video game club, so in between classes there are game stations hooked up to play, so after my classes I have to meet him over by one of the game stations and I’m lucky if he even notices I came in, luckier if he talks to me. I even feel like if I were to try to talk to him while he was playing, it would bounce off because he’s so in-tune with the game. I’ve tried talking with him about him ignoring me, because I actually want to be there and spend time with him when I can, but apparently he doesn’t get how he’s ignoring me and puts the blame on me somehow. The sad thing even is that every other person in the gaming club sees how he ignores me, they even call him “captain oblivious” when he isn’t around. I just don’t understand and it seems like games are just more important to him than me. I don’t know what to do and every time I try talking to him about it he just gets mad at me….I jsut don’t know what to do when it comes to this relationship anymore….

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